Update October 27, 2024
After lots of hesitation, I'm again posting on the Internet.
I'm a quiet, private person. I really don't like posting anything on the Internet. But, under the circumstances, I need to try again.
I made a page, ElaHoward.com https://www.elahoward.com/ to show what it was/is about. My coincidental resemblance to a historic person the Cult is obsessed about.
I'm an elderly woman now, living in a little condo that is being purposefully damaged by the HOA, condo Board. As the result, my condo might get flooded and condemned. I'll be homeless. We, my husband and I might not survive the ordeal.
And, there might be even a bigger problem. Some media has been talking about a civil war or martial law.
This is what the Cult was planing for decades. The Cult has been trying to set up Portland, Oregon as a site of starting a civil war. The whole Portland "extreme left" is all fake - staged by the Cult.
I hope and pray that my home will be fine, that there will no war, no martial law, no camps, no bombings of the volcanoes, none of the things the Cult was planning in the late 1990s.
Brief explanation of the picture above. My life on a timeline. I was born in the mid 1960s in Poland - the country between Ukraine and Germany in Europe. I grew up in a two room apartment. This was during the East Block/Soviet regime that was oppressing Poland. There were food shortages. But my parents and grandparents did a good job, doing the best. I was always helping. And I was studying a lot. I wanted to get into Medical School, which I did. I became a Medical Doctor at the age of 24. I worked as a medical doctor in my home country, Poland, and, briefly, in Switzerland. I loved my job.
Then, under strange circumstances, in 1996, I was invited to the USA, Portland, Oregon, to study "Jungian psychology".
I thought it was advanced medicine, with a cross-over with psychology. I didn't realize that the "school" that invited me, was, actually, a Cult - and the top of the BAMBOOZLEMENT industry. The Cult are the ones who INVENT the psychological, cultural and biological warfare. The Cult wanted to use me, and train me to become a BAMBOOZLER - "The next Thomas Szasz and Stanislav Grof." Szasz and Grof were Austro-Hungarian psychiatrists who came to the USA and pushed some very strange ideas, including reversal of what is normal, and PUSHING PSYCHEDELICS.
I refused to work for the Cult. I refused to have anything to do with it. I said NO to the Cult.
My medical career was cancelled. My life was (almost) ruined by harassment. But I'm still here!
I'm still happy that I said NO to the Cult. My opinions are still the same, as in the late 1990s.
Stay sane, stay healthy. Avoid psychedelics. Avoid neurotoxins (drugs, street and pill-mill prescriptions).
In the late 1990s, the Cult developed the idea of "Matrix" - this was, as I was told, invented personally by the Leader/Guru of the Portland Cult.
"Red Pill" - under the pretext of "enlightenment" to talk people into using psychedelics and mass poison people.
Do not be deceived! Don't use psychedelics!!!!
In the late 1990s I thought it was just strange ideas. Now, years and decades later, the phrase "Red Pill" became ubiquitous. But what is it? Nobody tells us about the psychedelic hidden agenda. Because the Cult targets people's UNCONSCIOUS.
As it turned out, the Cult is very powerful. All the weird stuff that has been going on for the last century is the Cult's job. Including "wokism," all the weird ideas..... a fake "alien invasion," "we are living in a simulation." NO! We are not!
Essentially, ALL the weird chaos is the Cult's job. The Cult works both sides, pits people against each other.
The Cult is a Freudian/Jungian Cult, as in , Sigmund Freud (1856 - 1939) and Carl Gustav Jung (1875 - 1961), who were psychiatrists, Austro-Hungarian and Swiss, respectively.
Freud and Jung were psychiatrists with a twist - they developed "psychoanalysis" and "psychotherapy" - their hidden agenda was manipulation of the UNCONSCIOUS - of individuals and the "masses."
I don't like the word the "masses." I'd rather say - us, the people/peasants. I like the word "peasants." My grandparents and great grandparents were peasants/farmers. My parents were school teachers. I became a Medical Doctor, but, at heart, I'm a peasant. I love nature, gardening and the clean, healthy beauty of the world.
The Portland, Oregon Cult was initially started in Zurich, Switzerland. The Cult was lead by a Leader/Guru who was said to be the successor of Carl Gustav Jung. In 1980, the Cult moved from Zurich, Switzerland, to Portland, Oregon.
As I was told in the late 1990s, the Leader/Guru of the Portland Cult developed ALL psychological, cultural and biological warfare since 1961. Including the Sixties - drug "culture," cults, and breaking of the traditional family.
The Leader/Guru of the Portland Cult was/is very scary. I'm afraid to say his name. He's a hidden Leader/Guru. He's not identified as such on the Internet. But very powerful. I never spoke to him. But I expressed my opinions in 1996 and the late 1990s. The Cult retaliates for ANYTHING that is said against their Leader/Guru. Any criticism. Even grinning.
The Cult members did/do everything the Leader/Guru told them. The Cult members claimed that he performed "miraculous healings." The Cult members worshiped their Leader/Guru as deity. Actually, they used a different word.
They used the word God.
I know the difference.
I worship God in Heaven only.
I refused to worship the Leader/Guru as deity and I refused to work for him and the Cult. I refused to be a part of his personal flock.
That's why my professional career got cancelled. That's why I've been subjected to horrible harassment.
Recently, the Leader/Guru passed away. But I'm still afraid to say his name. The Cult is very intense. The Cult retaliates heavily against anybody who goes against the Leader/Guru, who says anything against the Leader/Guru, or even just sneers or grins at his ideas. The Cult was/is like a totalitarian regime, with the Leader/Guru as a totalitarian ruler, as a "supreme leader." The Cult wants to impose such totalitarianism on all of us.
Stay sane. Stay healthy. Stay free. Save us from a regime.
In Portland, Oregon, the Cult worked on starting a war. The Portland "extreme liberalism" or "extreme woke" is all fake - all staged by the Cult. The Cult created DICHOTOMY - two opposite sides - woke and anti-woke. To make people fight. Most horrible thing the Cult was talking about in 1996 was bombing the volcano. I still don't believe it. Because it's too scary. In 1996, the Cult was saying that the volcano near Portland, Oregon, Mount Saint Helens was bombed to celebrate the arrival of the Leader/Guru in Oregon. Mount Saint Helens indeed erupted in 1980. I still hope that the Cult was lying or joking, and that the volcano erupted naturally.
The most important thing I have to say is - Stay healthy. Stay focused. Avoid psychedelics. Avoid neurotoxins (drugs, over-prescribed pills. Avoid watching movies with quick cuts and flashes. Take your headphones off - there are dangerous frequencies in music that hurt brain tissue. Take care of your health.
Stay sane. Save us.
The page https://elahoward.com ElaHoward.com explains the main reason the Cult wanted to lure me in. I really don't like to talk about it. It's a coincidence. Coincidentally, I carried a passing family resemblance to a historic person the Cult is obsessed about.
The Cult is into coincidences, lose associations and "synchronicities". The Cult/Sect/Family is highly irrational, nonsensical, NON-LINEAR thinkers. Even though I'm obviously not the person the Cult thought I was supposed to be, still, the Cult was obsessing about me. The Cult lives in fantasy world.
The Cult used other look-alikes too. The Cult is like a c..r z.... y .... clown theater. This is a very risky thing to say for me to say. The Cult might retaliate severely.
In the late 1990s the Cult was saying that they wanted to drive the world c-r-a-z-y. Or, drive the world m-a-d.
But if you (or - I) called the Cult c-r-a-z-y, it was punishable. The Cult was very upset. The Cult considers themselves geniuses.
I don't like putting anything on the Internet. But, under the circumstances, I feel like I should say something.
I hope and pray for the future. I hope that God in Heaven will save us. And that whoever reads this, will look up to God in Heaven and do a good job.
Stay sane. Stay healthy. Save us.
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I created Internet content in 2016. But then, I stopped putting anything on the Internet, after the Cult threatened me heavily.
Since then, I spent time at home, going about my day, gardening, doing things around the house and studying music theory.
I got into studying music theory after I discovered harmful frequencies in music and films. I ran the film "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" soundtrack through a free software "Audacity" I discovered spots of low frequencies, 16 Hz, so called "ghost frequencies". These sound frequencies are not audible to humans. But still, these sound frequencies affect us - in a very negative way. The 16 Hz frequency can cause resonance/vibration of a human eyeball and cause visual illusions - that's why it's called "ghost frequency." People aren't really "seeing ghosts" - it's the vibration/resonance of the fluid inside the human eyeball. Medically, it's called a "visual illusion." But still, this will cause fear. The whole "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" provocation is a giant piece of BAMBOOZLEMENT.
After this discovery, I spent a lot of time researching how sound affects us, our brains. And the, so called "Havana Syndrome," which is Traumatic Brain Injury - TBI. It used to be known in common language as "being shell-shocked" - after being in combat, close to explosions. Also, sound waves that are inaudible - outside of the human range of hearing - can cause such symptoms. But the "experts" on the internet call "Havana Syndrome" a "mysterious illness," or a "mass hysteria."
It's not. It's a brain injury. Very well known to doctors, medical doctors, physicians in my generation.
What is being said now, in the media, is a lot of BAMBOOZLEMENT. Freudian Bamboozlement - as in Sigmund Freud, who worked on "hysteria" - what we would call now a "psychosomatic illness." Freudian ideas are to manipulate people and target people's UNCONSCIOUS.
The main thing with Traumatic Brain Injury is to avoid repeated trauma.
The easiest thing you can do - take your headphones off. There are lots of harmful sound frequencies in music and films. These sound frequencies shouldn't be there. One thing you can do is to reduce the effect of these frequencies on your brain. Also - sound going from one ear to another is harmful.
Listen to acoustic music. Live music. Play acustic music. Sing.
Whoever reads it,
Stay sane. Stay un-bamboozled. Look up to God in Heaven. Save us.
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The Cult staged a provocation in Portland, Oregon, anti-police provocation, to create chaos. The film "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" was one of the elements of the Cults gigantic provocation work.
The Cult's provocation continues
In the film, "Alien Boy, Life and Death of James Chasse," Kurt Cobain from the rock band "Nirvana" talks about Portland punk rock band "Poison Idea." As I was researching, I discovered that, in 2016, in August, as the Presidential elections were happening, the band "Poison Idea" made a horrible video "Calling All Ghosts" - about staging a horrible attack on the Presidential Candidate D-o-n-ald T-ru-mp. I'm using dashes, because I don't want the "algorithms" to come here. Whoever might read this page, will read it. My page is just an FYI.
The "Poison Idea" "Calling All Ghosts" video is horrible. It's about a young man, brainwashed by a brainwashing cult. And there are all these flashes. It's so horrible. The video gained even more significance after the horrible attack on D-o-n-ald T-ru-mp on July 13, 2024.
What is the Cult going to do next?
Let's pray that D-ona-ld T-ru-mp will be save and there will be no martial law.
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In 2016, the Cult gave me an ultimatum.
Since 1996, the Cult gave me SEVERAL ULTIMATUMS and several "last chances."
I always refused. I always said NO.
In 2016, one of the Cult members, with whom I was in touch socially, gave me a box of books. This was a collection of books written by the Leader/Guru of the Portland Cult. I was instructed to read these books, go "back" to the Leader/Guru and apologize to him for what I said in 1996.
I kept a straight face. I accepted the box of books. I said that I would read them. I didn't express any criticism. I didn't flinch. I didn't grin. I already knew that no criticism of the Leader/Guru was allowed. Not even grinning.
So, I let it slide. I just pretended that I was interested in the books. I didn't read them.
Then, I posted something online. One of my first posts online I ever made. This was during horrific harassment I was subjected to. I wanted to say something about the Cult. Make my voice heard. Make a trace.
Subsequently, the Cult member who gave me the box of books called me on the phone. She said she wanted to meet with me. I used to hang out with her, socially, from time to time. We usually went for a walk, or to listen to live music. Or we hung out at her place. Sometimes I met other people from the Cult. Which was the point, because I wanted to see what the Cult was up to. I always tried to find out what the Cult was doing. I kept probing her about the Cult. But she was tight-lipped. The Cult is very secretive.
Sometimes I gave her a car ride to a laundromat - she didn't have a washing machine and she didn't have a car.
I thought she wanted me to give her a car ride somewhere, or just hang out, this is how it sounded on the phone.
But, instead, she invited me to her office. She wasn't licensed as a therapist, but, somehow, she worked as a therapist and had an office. She told me that she had one psychotherapy client a week. So, how did she pay for the office? She was unemployed, but had the money to travel internationally. Hmmm.... that's how some of the Cult members lived - no real job - just travels, all expenses paid. And who was paying for all this..... let's guess.....
So she asked me to pick her up at her office. I walked into her office, and she was on her laptop, with some sort of software or webpage open. And she said, "I'll be terminating my therapy with you...."
What?!!!!!! And she was saying some really weird things, scolding me, as if I did something.... While her laptop was possibly recording.... So I just got up and left.
Outside, there was a police car. I'm so glad they didn't arrest me.
Why would they arrest me? For making an on-line post about the Cult?
The Cult member who was "terminating therapy" and ranting at me, wasn't my "therapist."
I was giving car rides to the laundromat, and hung out with her, occasionally.
But, that's how the Cult works.
Psychotherapy is the Cult's biggest project.
In 1996, the Cult told me about things about Sigmund Freud (1856 - 1939, an Austro-Hungarian psychiatrist, father of psychoanalysis.) The Cult loved Sigmund Freud. The Cult was saying, "Ha, ha, Sigmund Freud was a genius. Christian Catholics went to confession, but Christian Protestants didn't. So Freud invented psychotherapy to spy on the Protestant Christians (and subsequently, on everybody else). Ha, ha. " The Cult was laughing.
I still cringe.
In 2016, I knew this woman for many years and decades. I met her in 1999, during a Cult's workshop, aka "Jungian psychology group work," in Washington, DC. I hung out with her. We did mostly small talk. But, actually ... all these years, she was... my handler, a spy and fabricator of fake "therapy" records.
That's how the Cult works. "Psychotherapy" is the Cult's grand project.
To make things worse, in some states in the USA, psychotherapists are allowed to prescribe meds. Without ever having studied medicine.
Would you let your car be worked on by somebody who never studied car mechanics? Bad idea.
Or, would you go to a dentist who never studied dentistry? Very, very bad idea.
Doctors, medical doctors like I, real doctors, physicians, are cancelled.
While the Cult's "psychotherapists" are going rampant. "Psychotherapy," over-prescribing meds and pushing weird stuff, including psychedelics.
Result - massive mental health epidemics.
Recently, 2023, I read an article in the Washington post about a girl who was mis-diagnosed for 10 years. The parents of this girl/young woman spent a fortune, $180,000 on six months of a residential treatment with psychotherapy for their daughter. But she didn't get better. She got WORSE. The article was "She Was Headed to a Locked Psych Ward. Then an ER Doctor Made a Startling Discovery." The emergency doctor ordered a test - CT scan (computer tomography, 3-D X-ray). The girl had HYDROCEPHALUS - in common language known as "water in the brain." It's a severe neurological condition that causes neurological and psychiatric symptoms.
Hydrocephalus requires BRAIN SURGERY, NOT PSYCHOTHERAPY.
Any doctor, a medical doctor, a physician in my generation, would have diagnosed this gir, easily, by a neurological exam and an X-ray, when she was still a teenager.
But doctors, medical doctors, physicians like I get cancelled.
While "psychotherapists" are being employed instead. Charging a lot of money.
There's the BIG PHARMA, and there's the BIG PHARMA COMPANION - the pill mill prescribers or the psychotherapists who never studied medicine.
And, there are the employees of the Cult. BAMBOOZLEMENT INDUSTRY posing as therapists, spying and manipulating people.
I studied medicine in three languages, Polish, German (in Switzerland) and in English (USA). I worked as a medical doctor in Poland and in Switzerland. But I never got to work as a doctor in the USA.
I got cancelled.
These days, I sit at home, unemployed. I never earned more than $20 (or so) an hour, working as a crisis responder in Portland, Oregon (2002-2014). My co-workers (at least some) turned out to be the members of the Cult, staging provocations and a mass tragedy. Mental health crisis, homelessness, drug epidemics, Portland horror. The Cult setting Portland up for starting a civil war.
I pray and hope that there will be no war. God in Heaven, save us.
Right now, I sit in my condo that might soon get flooded. I might not survive the ordeal. I have nowhere else to go. I have almost no money.
And I'm still glad I refused to work for the Cult.
I thank God in Heaven for giving me strength to say NO.
I pray to God in Heaven to help me survive much longer. So I can tell the story of the Cult.
But mostly, I want give the message:
Stay sane. Stay healthy. Avoid psychedelics. Take care of your brain health - take off your headphones - there are harmful frequencies in music, films and advertisements. Avoid screen time. Avoid films with quick cuts and quick flashes - these have really bad effects.
Worship God in Heaven only.
Not a Leader or a Guru.
I hope that somebody or a bunch of somebodies will read this.
Stay sane. Stay focused. Save us.
Below is the content I created in 2016.
I decided to leave it here, with minor changes
On September 17 James Chasse was killed in 2006 in the hands of a team of Portland Police and Sheriff's deputy. Since the death of James Chasse, the pseudo-activists and the provocateurs, aided by the Cult called "....." (I'm too scared to say their name) keep staging demonstrations. On September 17, in Portland, the provocateurs stage a "night of rage" with protests and burnings of the American flag. How horrible. And they provoke more and more tension.... more and more violence...
The film, "Alien Boy, the Life and death of James Chasse" is a provocation lie-lie-lie film about his death... In the film, the provocateurs show me as accountable for his death, even though I saw James Chasse one time, for one minute, two days before he was killed. I'm an immigrant from Poland. I'm not actually Jewish, but nevertheless, I've been targeted with heavy anti-Semitic slurs and Holocaust-themed harassment. Apparently, the provocateurs use an "anything goes" approach.
The provocateurs have taken the film "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" around the country and oversees. Many people suffered and died as the result of this provocations already. And the provocation keeps growing... Meanwhile... politicians have been elected with the help of the provocateurs. BIG $$$ have been pocketed by the establishment and the provocateurs together... Because, of course, the same hand has been playing both sides. The same hand has been holding all the cards...
The provocateurs say that they that they are working on what in Oregon is referred to as a "Revolution" or an "Independence movement." But really, the provocateurs are trying to stage a Civil War. And an entry point into a world war...
No! No war!
Please save us!
James Chasse was killed on September 17. Two days prior, on September 15, I was a part of a team of three Cascadia clinicians who went to his residence to conduct a welfare check. Chasse's Cascadia case manger who knew him for a long time and neglected him for weeks was part of that team. All this was covered up, including during grand jury hearing and during four subsequent court cases. Seven years after the death of James Chasse, with nobody ever making a peep to me, my employer Cascadia, together with Jason Renaud, the Oregon Euthanasia man, with Brian Lindstrom and his famous wife Cheryl strayed released the film, "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse," where they cover up their involvement and present me as accountable for his care and for his death.
After the provocation-film was realeased, I've been targeted by gruesome death threats, some of them heavily anti-Semitic and Holocaust-themed. I'm an immigrant from Poland. I'm actually not Jewish, but apparently, for the provocateurs/hunters, anything goes. The September 15, 1935 Nazi "racial exclusion" laws targeted Jewish people and people with a trace of Jewish descent down to fourth generation. Or, just anybody.
Nobody wants to help me. People are either seeing this hunt as a part of the Portland status-quo, or are afraid to do anything and help me. My Civil Rights complaint was dismissed. The court of law dismissed my lawsuit against Cascadia.
On September 17, 2006 James Chasse was walking from church. About two hours later, he was dead.
To the right is the trailer on Youtube.
I don't recommend watching it. It doesn't make sense. It's a bunch of staged lies.
I don't recommend the film "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse, but here it is - to the right. Otherwise, it's hard to believe that it can be real. The lie-lie-lie film, "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" (to the right).
The horrible song goes:
"Go and grab your guns
you got him on the run
'cause she's an Alien
They hurt what they don't understand...
... Got him on the run
Go and grab your gun
'cause he's an Alien Alien Alien Boy.
...Got no rights, no rights at all...
And then, in a low voice, there's something I don't want to quote here because of the explicitness.
I don't recommend watching this lie-lie-lie film. I recommend reading about the provocation, the deception, the actors, the smiling police officer, the lawyer who doesn't asks the most important questions, the time-holes and loops, the Nazi/Satanist band "Poison Idea" who in the film are presented as "friends" of James Chasse, about the "Alien Boy" "go grab your guns" song, about forged documents, kangaroo courts, cover-ups, the involvement of the members of a Cult called ".........."" with outpost in war zones and politically charged places all over the world . I recommend finding out about the ".........." training that was imposed on Portland Police after the death of James Chasse. And about the makers of "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse". The main producer is an Euthanasia network guy who is presented as... a "mental health advocate" and an "expert in police accountability." A co-producer is very famous Cheryl Strayed who co-produced the film "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" and is famous for having learned her life lessons from shooting up heroin and wrote a memoir "Wild." Cheryl Strayed put me in in her lie-lie "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" film without ever talking to me. About the agency Cascadia Behavioral Health who co-produced the film and put me in it without ever making a peep or giving me a warning that I would be threatened to be "erased with no trace" and be the next "Alien" to harass. About Cascadia employing Cult members ".........." who were my co-workers and who framed into being presented as "accountable" for James Chasse's death. I recommend reading my Civil Rights complaint that was dismissed and my lawsuit against Cascadia that Cascadia didn't respond to and was dismissed too.
I recommend pondering the tragedy - the human tragedy of James Chasse's death, the tragedy of how many more suffering and deaths the provocateurs have caused, the tragedy of the staged demonstrations with horrible burnings of the American flag on September 17, Constitution Day, the day when we should remember and ensure our most precious human and civil rights. I recommend pondering the tragedy of having the human and civil rights taken away, just like in the "Alien Boy, the Life and Death of James Chasse" song - "you have no rights, no rights at all.
Protect our rights. Save us.
The provocation machine in Portland is working overdrive. A guy who works in Portland as an artist created an anti-Semitic provocation/smear and put it on the Internet. It's horrible, gut-wrenching and really ugly. I contacted this "artist" and him to remove it. He removed some of it, but left most of it sitting on the Internet. It involves events (true or not) in Paris and other cities in Europe in 1920s. Right now (as I'm writing this, in April 2017), and, fortunately, it doesn't seem to be attracting any attention. But it's very, very concerning!
I made comments in Portland press. Some of my comments were deleted.
PortlandSecret.wordpress.com is the summary of the comments I made in Portland Press. I stopped making comments because I was death-treatened.
My comments are also in the Oregonian newspaper and on Discuss.
I had an interview with Portland BOLI (Civil Rights Division of Bureau of Labour and Industries) investigator on December 28, 2015.
I called it a “Cake Day” because interview with Portland BOLI investigator was on the day BOLI sized financial assets of the bakery Sweet Cakes as their fine for not baking a wedding cake for a lesbian couple.
The “cake coincidence” was that during my interview with BOLI a cake was also discussed – in my case it was a cake decorated with gravestones.
Before my former employer Cascadia fired me, they hired a lawyer who was to conduct "workplace mediation." Durig the mediation, the lawyer held a picture of a cake decorated with gravestones in front of me.
I told the BOLI investigator about the "Death Cake." The investigator told me "Casadia said that his lawyer was respectable."
Portland Civil Rights Division of BOLI dismissed my complaint.
Ela Howard Originally from Poland , now living in Portland, Oregon. (aka Ella Howard - for search engines and people who tend to spell my name Ella)
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